Remember in the 90’s there used be a room in your house that was called the “computer room”.
I am so sorry. If you found out things about me that made you question who I am I am so sorry. If you found out that I am a relapsed cutter through this blog and I didn’t tell you in real life I am so so sorry. If you found out about my bipolar and wondered about me or got worried about me through this blog I am so sorry. These things are part of my daily life. Every day I think about hurting myself; i plan when and with what and the means to justify and it’s horrible. It’s so horrible and no one even knows.
I wish every day that I could change who I am but I can’t; I fucking can’t. And that isn’t your fault. I’m sorry for making this blog and making it a dumping ground for my emotions when it shouldn’t be.
I just made a password-protected blog for myself and whoever I give the password to. You won’t see anything else about this stuff anymore. I’m sorry for my lack of self-control and the break in my real self vs my online self.
I will delete this post in two days, on December 8th, 2013, at 4:30 EST.
I really want to say I’m sorry to one person especially and that’s Madison. I know you watch my blog so if you see this, I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about my relapse, so sorry. I couldn’t get myself to. When you see this please contact me because I want to beg for forgiveness.
Here’s to life and new beginnings,